Maybe not in few days, but I certainly hope she will return (I'll have to get used to refering to DE as "she"... this whole thing is confusing... without offense, but as one of my wiser quotes say - which can be mentioned here about the gender confusion, "If you deny who you are, you are no longer a man")...
I know the feeling - I got mad at toolkit, claimed it sucked, wanted to re-do Satarel's Legacy, but then, one night, before sleep, I had a talk with myself.
- "Cesque," - my other self told me. - "what the hell are you doing man? You've began work on game, now you abandon this? Worse, you want to make a crappy re-make with default BS and new storyline? Forget this! Change this or that, but keep on working. You worked hard on tiles and somehow on programs, Xorlak helped you with code, your pal Psycho Boy (Tyler / (Editor: Censored) / other nicks) helped you with graphics... you want to burry their aid, too? Get back to senses and work on game. Thank God you didn't burry the files."
- "But this is too much for me to take!" - I said to myself.
- "There are no results without result. You have a goal. World must see one toolkit game which isn't manga-esque ripoff of Final Fantasy, dude!"
Of course, I still lose faith in TK from time to time.
One thing I beg you, Dark Elite... if you made some progress on game, DON'T DELETE it. You may not ever return to it, but don't delete it, or keep it on some CD or somewhere... It's always good to have a bridge behind you rather than burn it down, even if you want to move forward.
I already wanted to send all my tiles to MS (ha! nevermore!) and delete the rest of files to get rid of TK in my life.
I also have things TK steals my time from - without TK I would have time to draw some sketches (I always liked drawing), have fun, care about dog, propably get more respect for my parents and spend less time on the puter (ha!), maybe I would even have time to re-consider my all religious beliefs (I totally fell when it comes to christianity, so I remain a simple pantheist with belief that there is no one good religion but all religions are a way for human to stay out of evil and propably even make some good, of course I still hate blind fanatics who debate over hours why evolution isn't true or why Jesus couldn't have a wife) and put my life into order.
But what the hell? I am not forced to work on it, I can from time to time, and maybe I'll do something good with it. So I just stopped being stressed about having a "game to do". And I'm very happy with this all at the moment, I recommend you the same.
(I hereby dedicate leaving Dark Elite my new avatar, re-made pic "Thorns", which obviously no one can get what represents because of low quality... it symbolicaly depicts way every human must strugggle with his/her own weakness and problems of life every day... or whatever. I wanted to test how this pic looks in sig anyway.)
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